Monday, August 28, 2017

Dead branch



At the roadside
Lay a dried  broken branch .
No leaves,
No flowers,
No buds,
No fruits .
Not a spark of life in any form.
It was lying there ready to be kicked
by the first foot that tipped on it.
No heart to kick it
I picked it up.
Held it close to my eyes
to see its naked beauty.
Didn't want to leave it alone.
I Brought it home ,
Cleaned the sand,
which had changed its color.
After the shower it looked
fresh to me .
Dried it in the hot sun
to bring back
the crispness of the twigs.
After a day or two
put in a brass vase
to give it a place in my house.
Had a few colorful birds
in my showcase,
that were looking for a place to perch.
Made them sit happily on the new home,
After which the dead branch looked beautiful.
So as the birds as if they started to breathe!
If a dead branch of a tree
can bring alive the showcase birds
How about the humans?
Yes, if they wish
they can live in parts
of many lives
even after they
stop to breathe...........



காய்ந்த கிளை




சாலை ஓரத்தில்
தனியாய் கிடந்தது
 ஒரு காய்ந்த  கிளை.
பூவும் இல்லை
இலையும் இல்லை,
காயும் இல்லை,
பழமும் இல்லை.
அதில் சிறு உயிர்
ஒட்டிக்கொண்டிருப்பதற்கான
ஓர் அறிகுறியும் இல்லை.
யாரின் பாதம்
முதல் படுமோ
அவரிடம் மிதிபடும்
அவலம்.
உதைத்து தள்ள
மனமில்லாமல்
கையில் எடுத்து
கண்ணருகில் வைத்து
அதன் ஒப்பனையில்லா
அழகை ரசித்தேன்.
விட்டுவர மனமின்றி
என் வீட்டிற்கு
என்னுடனே எடுத்து வந்தேன்.
அதன் தேகம் நிறம்
மறைத்திருந்த
 மண்ணை
தண்ணீர் விட்டு
கழுவினேன்.
சூடான சூரியன்
தன் கதிர் கொண்டு
ஈரம் காயச்செய்தான்.
ஊறிப்போன குச்சிகள்
மிடுக்காய் நிமிர்ந்தன.
அதன் பின்னே
அதன் நிஜ அழகு
மிலிர்ந்தது
இரண்டொரு நாள்
ஆனப்பின்
பித்தளைப் பூ ஜாடி
ஒன்றுக்குள்
அழகாக நிற்கச்செய்து
என் வீட்டில்
ஓர் இடமளித்தேன்.
என் வீட்டு
கண்ணாடிக் கூண்டுக்குள்
பல காலம் அடைப்பட்டு
சுதந்திரமாய் அமர்ந்திடவே
இடம் தேடி களைத்திருந்த
பல வண்ணக் குருவிகளை
அக்கிளையில் அமரச்செய்தேன்.
குருவிகள் அமர்ந்தப்பின்
காய்ந்த கிளையும்
பச்சையாய் தெரிந்தது.
உயிரில்லா குருவிகளும்
உயிர் பெற்று ஒளிர்ந்தது.
ஓர் மரத்தின்
காய்ந்த  குச்சிகளே
உயிரில்லா குருவிகளுக்கு
உறைவிடமாய் ஆன பொழுது,
மறித்தப் பின்
மரம் மட்டுமல்ல
மனிதனும்
பயனாகலாம்
மனமிருந்தால்!
பல உயிர்களில்
மீண்டும் வாழலாம்
உறுப்புகளாய்.......


Thursday, August 24, 2017

அக்கக்கா அக்கக்கா.......

காலை மணி ஒன்பது இருக்கும். கணவர் ஆபீஸுக்கும் மகன் பள்ளிக்கும் சென்றுவிட்டார்கள். சூரியன் கூட இன்று சோம்பேறியாகவே இருந்தது. ஒன்பது மணி ஆனாலும் அது மேக போர்வைக்குள் சுகமாக பதுங்கி கொண்டிருந்தது. ரம்மியமான அந்தக் காலைப் பொழுதை ரசிக்க ஹால் ஜன்னல்களை திறந்து வைத்தப்படி சோபாவில் அமர்ந்திருந்தேன். எங்கிருந்தோ வந்த தென்றல் என் முகம் வருடியது. வீட்டில் நான் தனியாக இருப்பதால் வீடு அமைதியாக இருக்கும். அந்த அமைதி எனக்கு ஏனோ பிடிப்பதில்லை. பேச்சுக்குரல் கேட்க வேண்டி தொலைக்காட்சியை ஓடவிடுவேன். அதில்   ஏதோ ஒரு  நிகழ்ச்சி கடனே என்று ஓடிக்கொண்டிருந்தது. தினசரியை கண்கள் மேய்ந்துக் கொண்டிருக்க  கையில் சூடான டீ நிரம்பிய கோப்பை வேறு. அப்பொழுது  திடீரென்று ஒரு கூவல் எங்கிருந்தோ விடாமல் கேட்டுக்கொண்டே இருந்தது. அது அக்கக்கா குருவியின் அழைப்பு. ஏதோ ஒரு அடுக்கு மாடி குடியிருப்பில்  மொட்டை மாடியில் அமர்ந்தபடி அது யாருக்கோ அழைப்பு விட்டுக்கொண்டிருந்தது. ”அக்கக்கா அக்கக்கா” என்று அது விடாமல் கத்திக்கொண்டிருந்தது.

நான் சிறுமியாக இருந்தது பொழுது எங்கள் வீட்டு தென்னை மரத்தில் வந்து அமர்ந்து அக்கக்கா குருவி கத்தும். கேட்கவே பாவமாக இருக்கும்.  அந்த சத்தம் மனதை பிழியும். அந்த  ஒலியின் பின் ஒரு கதை இருப்பதாக என் அம்மா கூறியது நினைவிற்கு வந்தது. அக்கா குருவியும், தங்கை குருவியும் ஆற்றில் குளிக்க போனார்களாம். அப்பொழுது திடீரென்று வந்த வெள்ளத்தில் அக்கா குருவி அடித்து செல்லப்பட்டதாம். அன்றிலிருந்து அந்த தங்கை குருவி “அக்கக்கா, அக்கக்கா” என்று தன் அக்காவை அழைத்துக் கொண்டே இருக்கிறதாம். வெள்ளத்தில் அடித்துச்செல்லப்பட்ட தன் அக்கா மீண்டும் தன்னிடமே உயிருடன் வந்து விடுவாள் என்று அது நினைத்து அழைத்துக் கொண்டே  இருக்கிறதாம்.  அக்கக்கா அக்கக்கா என்ற  அந்த கூவலை கேட்ட பொழுது இனம் தெரியாத ஒரு உணர்வு மனதை கவ்விக்கொண்டது. ஒரு சோக கீதம் அந்த கூவலில் எதிரொலித்தது. தன் அக்கா மேல் எவ்வளவு ஆசை இருந்திருந்தால் அது எவ்வளவு காலம் விடாமல் தொலைந்த தன் அக்காவை தேடிக்கொண்டிருக்கும்? அன்னக்கிளி படத்தில் வரும் பாடல் வரிகள் ஞாபகத்திற்கு வந்தது. ஏனோ என் கண்களில் நீர் கசிந்தது!

”சொந்தம் இல்லை பந்தம் இல்லை வாடுது ஒரு பறவை
அது தேடுது தன் உறவை
அன்பு கொள்ள ஆதரவாய் யாரும் இல்லை உலகில்
அது வாழுது தன் நிழலில்
அக்கக்கோ எனும் கீதம்
அதுதானே அதன் வேதம்”


ஆம் அதற்கென்று அழுது புலம்ப யாருமே இருக்கவில்லை. தன் சோகத்தை அதனால் யாரிடமும் பகிர முடியவில்லை. காலை  வேளை ஆதலால் எல்லோரும் அலுவலகத்திற்கும், பிற இடங்களுக்கும் செல்வதில் மும்முரமாக இருந்தார்கள். வாகன சத்தத்திற்கு நடுவே யாருக்கும் அவளின் குரல் கேட்டதாக எனக்கு தெரியவில்லை. அவளுக்கு அவள் அக்காவை தேடிக்கொடுக்க யாரும் முன் வரவில்லை. தத்தமது வேலையை பார்க்க விறுவிறு என்று ஓடிக்கொண்டிருந்தார்கள். எனக்கு பாவமாக இருந்தது. தொடர்ந்து கூவியதால் அவளின் குரல் ஒரு கட்டத்தில் கரகரத்தது. ஆனாலும் அவள் தன் கூவலை நிறுத்தியபாடு இல்லை. கூவலுக்கு இடையேயான இடைவெளியை கூட்டினாலே தவிர கூவலை நிறுத்தவில்லை. சற்று நேரம் ஆன பின் மீண்டும் விடாமல் கூவினால். தன் அக்காவை தொலைத்த  இடம் விடுத்து எங்கெங்கோ தேடி அலைகிறாள் அவள் பாவம். கையில் இருந்த  டீயை நான் குடித்து முடித்து இருந்த போதும் கோப்பையை கீழே வைக்க கூட நினையாமல் அந்த கூவலில்  மூழ்கி போயிருந்தேன்.

 ஒரு முப்பது நாற்பது நிமிடங்கள் இருக்கும் அதற்கு பின் அவள் ஓய்ந்துவிட்டாள். ஒருவேளை இவ்விடம் தன் அக்கா இல்லை என்பதை உறுதி படுத்திக்கொண்டு வேறு இடம் பறந்து சென்று விட்டாள் போலும். தன் தேடுதலை அவள் விடப்போவதில்லை என்பது மட்டும் எனக்கு உறுதியாக தெரிந்தது. வாழும் காலத்தில் உறவுகளை உதாசினப்படுத்தி உதறிவிடும் மனிதர்கள் மத்தியில்  காலம் காலமாய் , ஜென்ம ஜென்மமாய் தன் அக்காவை தேடும் அக்காகுருவி எனக்கு அதிசயமாய் தோன்றியது. உண்ணாமல் உறங்காமல் இப்படி ஊர் ஊராக, நாடு நாடாக தேடி அலைகிறாளே இவள்!  என்றாவது ஒருநாள் தன் அக்காவை தேடிக் கண்டு பிடிக்கவேண்டும் என்று என் மனம் வேண்டியது. அன்று முழுதும் அக்கக்கா அக்கக்கா அக்கக்கா என்ற அந்த ஒலி என் காதுகளில் எதிரொலித்துக்கொண்டே இருந்தது, மனமும் கனத்துக்கொண்டே இருந்தது........

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Everlasting Memories-- Picked from my old scribblings

It was 16th September 1999. The day we were looking forward. It was the reunion day for the Guindy 89 batch of E&C guys in Jackson Hole, Wyoming. Ravi was very excited. I was also excited because I was going to meet the guys , about whom I have heard lots of stories from Ravi. I think Ravi would not have slept the whole of previous night, just waiting for the dawn. We started our journey at 8am. Throughout the journey Ravi was in his own world. If at all he would open his mouth, he would say,"Pasanga ellaam vandhittu irupaanga." He was reading his college souvenir-this must be the hundreth time. He preserves it as his treasure. I consider it to be very lucky because it has traveled with him all over the world. He was smiling to himself-I guess he was thinking about his college days.

The thrill started when the flight was nearing Jackson Hole for landing. We were flying between steep rocky mountains on both the sides. I think the guys selected this particular place for their re union as a symbol of their soaring ambition. We were scared whether the pilot could make it . But he was an expert. He was handling it like a motor cycle. We reached Jackson hole at 6.15pm. We rented a car and drove to "Cowboy Village"-the resort we were to stay for four days. The moment we checked in, he gave a call to his friends' s room. He behaved like a twenty year old chap ,eagerly waiting to meet his friends. We met Logananthan alias "Lokku" and Gopal, the convener of the reunion and also their respective wives. We were talking for sometime, then Lokku's family and our family went out for dinner in "China Town." By the time we returned to the room, a couple of other friends had come. Ravi went to meet his friends after leaving me and my daughter in the room. I dont know what time he returned to the room after that.

Next day almost all the friends had arrived. All were in high spirits, talking non-stop. I could hear patting and tapping sounds-this is how they greeted each other-probably this is the Guindy style. The word "macchi was the most heard word. We planned to go to the Grand Teton Mountains. After introducing the families to other members, we went in seven cars following one another as if in a procession. We went hiking in the Teton mountains. There was a beautiful lake, surrounded by mountains. The water was crystal clear and we could see the reflection of the mountains inside the water. It looked like the mountains were sitting under the water and were trying to move whenever there was a wave. Lokku and Pattu threw stones in the water to see how far it went, with how many leaps and jumps. The stones went like jumping frogs. After a short refreshment we started again. Those who were tired stayed back.

In the evening we had camp-fire. We played Dumb Sherads. It was Men versus women. It was so much fun. When I had my turn I realized how difficult it must be for dumb people to express their feelings. For a single word I was struggling to express myself without the aid of my tongue. May be I'm inefficient in it. It was turning cold. The heat from the burning logs gave warmth. Around 8pm we returned to the cowboy village. Again Ravi went to talk with his friends. It was an escape from me probably.On the 18th morning we went in a tram for an ariel view of the grand Teton. It was a wonderful ride. The guys were reminded of the 47A bus in college days, with beautiful girls around. The whole tram was filled with laughter. We got down at the top of the mountain. A gush of cold air passed through every nerve. On all the sides we could see only mountains with scattered snow here and there and huge valleys. When I looked down from the top I felt dizzy. Lokku and Hari in their excitement went running down one of the mountains, without knowing where they were heading towards. We waited for a long time for them to return. Deepa and Sowmya, their respective wives were tensed. Gopal went in search of them -a real care taker. After one hour they all returned. Lokku and Hari brought a big ball of  snow to show us. It was a thrilling experience. I felt so happy to touch the snow ball. We went back to the cowboy village to get ready for the big formal party in the evening. The much awaited friend of all-Gulty-had arrived then. He had come leaving behind at home his wife and one month old boy baby. I would say that he made a wise decision in coming otherwise, he would have regretted his whole life for not having made it.

Around 3.30pm we started for the grand party. The much awaited show started at 6pm at Snow Kings Resort. But for 2 all other guys were in marroon T.Shirt, specially printed for the occasion..They all looked like college boys in their uniform. Most of the ladies were dressed traditionally. It was a treat for the eyes. Gopal as usual started the show and Hari as usual came up with questions to show his presence. All of them spoke about their college days, about the past ten years , about their wedding,wife and children. It seemed that all wives were wonderful-in putting up with their work schedule and in allowing them to slog in office. We had a delicious dinner. After that it was the wives turn to say a few words about their husbands. Almost everyone  felt proud to admit that their husbands were wonderful-What a liar we all were I thought! The show ended with Ravi's mimicry. He imitated his lecturers. This added spice to the show. Everyone seemed to enjoy it greatly.The whole hall was filled with laughter. The guys laughed heartily, remembering their old, joyful college days-forgetting all their present work tensions. They became students once again. Even I used to do the same in my college days. But after so many years I don't think I can remember my lecturer's behaviour and imitate it as effectively as Ravi did.

On the 20th we started for Yellow stone National park. It was a 55 miles drive-Scenic drive, wide range of mountains with the scattered snow on top ,glittering in the sun. It looked like the mountains were adorned with diamond crowns. There was vast stretches of land with cows grazing. Roads went winding like snakes and seemed never ending. As far as eyes could reach it was only mountains everywhere. I thought this was the end of the world. The changing colours of the trees talked about the incoming fall. Clouds were crawling over the mountains, playing hide and seek with them. Seeing the mountains feel the clouds, I couldn't withhold my urge to feel the clouds. I wished I could touch the clouds and feel their softness. Sometimes even the mountains seemed to move along with the clouds. The mountains were so tall as if to touch the sky. Some were rocky, some with lots of trees, some with shrubs. They showed unity in diversity. The entire scene soothed my heart. When you behold nature's beauty you tend to forget all tensions and worries.As we entered the yellow stone the experience was different. At the bottom of the heart I experienced a little fear when I saw the forest area and the valleys. We stopped near a beautiful waterfall. Waterfalls are free and independent..No one to control their way of flowing. Huge areas of land were covered by pine trees-some burnt down due to forest fire-some grown tall to touch the sky, as if there was a competition who was the tallest. It was scary to look at the black, burnt, lifeless trees standing erect. They were in a condition to fall down any moment. May be they died  just to give space for their next generation. Small streams ran along the roads on both the sides.

First we went to visit the world famous geyser basins. I was stunned to see the steam coming from the ground and the water erupting. It took sometime for me to accept the truth that the earth underneath had boiling water. We saw a whole lot of geyser basins in many areas. Some were blue in color , some red ,some green, some white. Each basin was different from the other in looks and in characters, as we humans are. Some left red sedimentation-may be to show their pent up anger. Some were very calm, just bubbling -as if smiling. Some had green sedimentations. The blue color basins were peace loving. One basin had the combinations of blue,red,orange,green and yellow color. I thought that some painter had spilled his colors over there. Though hot, the geysers were kind enough to allow certain vegetation to survive in their beds. When we walked near the geyser basins we were fully covered by steam. I felt I was cleansed of all my sins and I was a new human being stepping from heaven.


The geyser basins tried their level best to control their emotions, when  out of control they erupt . I t thought that they wanted to tell us something . Thats why they were bubbling. Though we talked a lot about them when we were near them not a single soul attempted to talk to them. Their stories must be full of sorrows, that's why hot steam was coming out of them. Some geysers were potters themselves-built figures out of mud without anyone's aid-unbelievable. . Near the geyser basins we saw two bisons seeing us with a question mark on their face-"Are we so very important that so many of you come to see us -why? what is the reason?" they were the VIP's in that area.

It was almost 3.30 pm ,a few of our friends wanted to leave for Jackson Hole. Rest of us continued with the trip. On one side there were waterfalls, with geyser basins here and there. We went to see the Grand Canyon of the Yellowstone. We viewed it from the inspiration point. Person with no artistic talent would also be inspired either to write or draw about the amazing scene. We saw at the time of sun set. The sun was trying to take rest behind the mountains, allowing the moon to take its position. It scattered its colorful rays over the mountains. This added to the existing beauty of the scene. Even at that moment I felt a tingling sense run through my nerves. When I think about the huge giant mountains with water running inbetween them-the sight though amazing was wonderful. The mountains were sculptors themselves. Some rocks were like temple gopuras, with idols of gods on top of them. I wondered who gave them the idea to carve themselves so artistically. The sound of the water falling accompanied by the sound of the blowing branches and the song of the chirping birds was like a symphony. There is no comparison to nature's music-each note is different. Even the steps we kept on the dried foliage added a rhythm. The rocks were of yellow, pink and orange in colour. Most of it was of yellow color, may be that's the reason for naming it Yellowstone-just a guess.

We saw elks on the way. A couple of them were grazing near the road side. Unlike humans they did not want to be the center of attraction. They ran away from the crowd. They didn't like humans entering into their territory and disturbing their privacy. They tried to scare us by running around. Our return journey started around 6.30 pm. Full moon day was nearing and the moon was very bright. Its streaks fell on the river water and dressed the water in rich silver clothing . The delicate dancing river and the pleasant shining moon traveled along with us for a long distance. It was dark everywhere, but for the moon's light. We reached the resort around. 11.30 pm. Never in my life can I forget the Yellowstone and its beauty. When I close my eyes and bring back the scenes, I feel i am in that place. I am captivated by the beauty. Though what  we saw in our one day trip was just a tip of an iceberg I will treasure the feelings in my heart for ever.


Next day was the parting day. Everyone left around 10.30 am. Our flight was at 4 pm we were the last to leave. We felt left alone in the place as if the whole family had left us. Cowboy village which was lively the day before seemed deserted. With a heavy heart we left the place at 12 pm. Ravi's face became dull. We went around Jackson hole for a couple of hours. When we reached the airport Ravi was silent. I could understand his feelings and I left him undisturbed. For three days we were as one family-new place, new friends(for me) and new experience. I am looking forward for the next meeting . Hats off for theguys who made it as a success. In the flight I sat near the window just to have a last glimpse of the Jackson hole. As the flight went high in the air Jackson Hole disappeared from my sight. I could view only a bed of mountains. "Mountains you inspire me a lot I will come back to see you when you will be dressed in pure white." After a while even the mountains disappeared and our flight was sailing on a bed of clouds." Ravi sat closing his eyes- may be he was recollecting the four days events........